I was the only one left in
the office. It was past 11pm and I was tired. I looked around at all the desks
and work spaces and thought how far we had come in the last year. I was proud
and elated, but I also feel profoundly lonely. We had come a long way, but I
felt like all the ideas and emotions has been drained out of me. I was giving
everything I had and I was getting very little back. Yes, people appreciated
what I was doing but I was the boss and I was becoming increasingly distant
from my team. I felt I could no longer ask them for advice. It would be a sign
We had investors and I
have to deal with them. I also deal with all the larger sales accounts and the
Board. All of this is taking increasing amounts of time. These relationship are
often characterized by conflict and they are taking a toll on my nerves. I am
always stressed out.
My wife looks after the
children and has a part-time job so I can’t burden her with all this. I can’t
talk tp my parents and my friends think I am some type of superman for getting
this far and I don’t want to destroy that illusion.
As I sat there, my
loneliness became overwhelming. I heard about a club for startup CEOs where
people share stories and experiences. I attended a dinner and in one night, I
realized that I was not alone anymore.